If and only if…

This entry is neither about the poem written by British Nobel laureate Rudyard Kipling nor mathematical reasoning. It is about what I would’ve become if…

If I struggled during my previous years back in MRSM, I should have scored all A’s,

If I scored all A’s in SPM 2008, I wouldn’t have to study in local university,

If I chose to remain at Universiti Teknologi Malaysia (UTM), I would’ve become an electrical engineer,

If I chose to remain at Universiti Islam Antarabangsa (UIA), I would’ve become a physicist and I don’t have to be a teacher (the occupation that I’d never dreamed of),

It’s really hurt when I started to think about the opportunities that I’ve wasted. And yes, I do regret it and I even hated myself for making a nonchalant decision. Hate it or like it, I have to accept that this is my life journey.

Of all the choices I’ve made in my life, I have to say that Allah has created the most perfect plan for all of us.

 “…But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you know not.”          Al- Baqarah (2): verse 216

Malay translation: “…Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”                                                 Al-Baqarah (2): ayat 216